aku memilih pergi, bukan untuk melupakanmu.
aku memilih pergi, agar aku mengerti apa artinya berharga.
mungkin kamu lupa apa artinya, mungkin kamu jg lelah, mungkin kamu ingin mencari bahagia versimu.
tapi tak apa...
melepaskanmu rasanya seperti menguak luka, namun ternyata bertahan dengan dirimu yg berbeda semakin membuka luka itu.
tapi tak apa...
akan aku jalani sakit ini untuk terakhir kalinya...
akan ku tutup rapat hati ini sampai aku lupa bagaimana rasanya sakit...
ini tangis terakhirku...
aku akan menunggu sang waktu menghapus sedihku
aku ingin menangis karena bahagia, bahagia karena dulu, kamu lah pemberi warna hidupku.
aku akan tersenyum melihat ke belakang, karena mengenalmu.
aku akan mengingat kebaikanmu yang membuatku menjadi seseorang yg lebih baik.
akan selalu ada kamu dalam doaku sampai rasa ini hilang oleh waktu.
aku tak betul-betul pergi, kita tak betul-betul berpisah. karena kita bisa bertemu dalam kenangan itu. kita bisa bertemu dalam doa.
semoga Tuhan beri kamu bahagia dalam bentuk apapun.
aku harus ikhlas...
selamat tinggal, kamu yg ku harap jadi yg terakhir...
Jumat, 28 Oktober 2016
Sabtu, 15 Oktober 2016
6 days ago
Hey
i know we havent seen each other or even talked in a long time
but i've been doing a lot of thinking lately and i want you to know that i miss you.
not like "i regret what happened" or even "i want to see you again"
just...
"i miss you."
full stop.
it's strange to think someone i used to know so well and knows me the most is now a total stranger.
most of the time i let myself forget because it's easier. but then i find something...
an old letter or a handmade flower slipped in books i haven't read in years.
and the full weight of what's been lost come crashing down on me.
but this isn't regret. we had reasons for ending it and they're as valid as ever.
but back at the start we didn't need reason for anything. it just happened.
we have lack of similar interests and we try so hard to get a long that well. and it's good to feel that someone never give up on me until the reasons came at the end.
and that's good. it means, one day i might find someone i won't say goodbye to.
but a part of me misses loving someone and knowing that someone could love me back as much as i do. that's all.
i guess what i am trying to say is i hope things are good with you and everything is great.
i hope you find a love that ours couldn't be and i hope that i find that too.
but a small part of me hopes that you remember what it was like before all the reasons and that you miss me too..
i know we havent seen each other or even talked in a long time
but i've been doing a lot of thinking lately and i want you to know that i miss you.
not like "i regret what happened" or even "i want to see you again"
just...
"i miss you."
full stop.
it's strange to think someone i used to know so well and knows me the most is now a total stranger.
most of the time i let myself forget because it's easier. but then i find something...
an old letter or a handmade flower slipped in books i haven't read in years.
and the full weight of what's been lost come crashing down on me.
but this isn't regret. we had reasons for ending it and they're as valid as ever.
but back at the start we didn't need reason for anything. it just happened.
we have lack of similar interests and we try so hard to get a long that well. and it's good to feel that someone never give up on me until the reasons came at the end.
and that's good. it means, one day i might find someone i won't say goodbye to.
but a part of me misses loving someone and knowing that someone could love me back as much as i do. that's all.
i guess what i am trying to say is i hope things are good with you and everything is great.
i hope you find a love that ours couldn't be and i hope that i find that too.
but a small part of me hopes that you remember what it was like before all the reasons and that you miss me too..
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